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My glass is always empty

I’ve realized that my glass is always empty and I seek the company of a guy to fill it. When I’m dating a guy, he’s all I think about and all I want. And my empty glass gets filled with all that is him and then I feel complete. I get completely wrapped up in him, and who he is, that I am a mere reflection or attachment of him and not my own person. If he and I are apart, my glass starts to empty and I long to fill it again with him.

But why do I long for someone else to fill my glass and why is it even empty?

I can only attribute the state of my glass to the many changes in my life. When I decided to moved to the Netherlands, I wanted to change everything that I was, do the things that make me happy and not what was expected of me. I’ve lived a lie for so many years that I don’t even know who I am. I am on a quest to find who I am and the things that make me happy. I want my glass to be full with all the things that I love to do before I seek someone else.

The principle behind these quotes is what fuel my journey…

You must love yourself before you love another. By accepting yourself and fully being what you are, your simple presence can make others happy.” – Author Unknown

He that falls in love with himself will have no rivals.” – Benjamin Franklin

Living life without self-courtship has a high cost. We risk losing our sensuality, our senses, precious moments with those we love, our smile, and our joy. When we romance ourselves, it prepares a fertile garden for a profusion of love to bloom in all areas of our lives. We regain passion and now becomes a moment not to be missed!” – Corrie Woods



Just before I board the plane to Amsterdam I feel it is important to mention the few highlights on the city to which I will now call my home.

Amsterdam is the capital and largest city of the Netherlands, located in the province of North Holland in the west of the country. The city, which had a population (including suburbs) of 1.36 million on 1 January 2008, comprises the northern part of the Randstad, the sixth-largest metropolitan area in Europe, with a population of around 6.7 million.

Its name is derived from Amstellerdam, indicative of the city’s origin: a dam in the river Amstel. Settled as a small fishing village in the late 12th century, Amsterdam became one of the most important ports in the world during the Dutch Golden Age, a result of its innovative developments in trade. During that time, the city was the leading centre for finance and diamonds.

The city is the financial and cultural capital of the Netherlands. Many large Dutch institutions have their headquarters there, and 7 of the world’s top 500 companies, including Philips and ING, are based in the city. The Amsterdam Stock Exchange, the oldest stock exchange in the world is located in the city center. Amsterdam is currently one of the best European cities in which to locate an International Business. It is ranked fifth in this category and is only surpassed by London, Paris, Frankfurt and Barcelona.

Amsterdam’s main attractions, including its historic canals, the Rijksmuseum, the Van Gogh Museum, Hermitage Amsterdam, Anne Frank House, its red-light district, and its many cannabis coffee shops draw more than 3.66 million international visitors annually.

Not only is this city known for its great attractions but its also known as one of the most bicycle-friendly large cities in the world and is a centre of bicycle culture with good facilities for cyclists such as bike paths and bike racks. In 2006, there were about 465,000 bicycles in Amsterdam. Bicycles riding is so well used by all socio-economic groups because of their convenience, Amsterdam’s small size, the large number of bike paths, the flat terrain, and the arguable inconvenience of driving an automobile.

There are many wonderful attractions when one talks about Amsterdam but nothing is more dear to me than an attitude of tolerance by this wonderful city where nearly everyone speak excellent English. Prostitution is legalized and licensed in the Netherlands, and in Amsterdam it is very visible (window prostitution), and there are large numbers of prostitutes. The sale, possession, and consumption of small quantities of cannabis is allowed by authorities . This tolerance also extends to the LGBT community as well. The Netherlands was the first country in the world to legalize same-sex marriage. Same-sex marriage in the Netherlands has been performed and recognized since April 1, 2001. The legalization of same-sex marriage actually started on January 1, 1998 where registered partnerships were introduced in Dutch law.

These are just the few great things about this wonderful city and as I get to know it more I know that there are going to be more hidden gems that I will discover.


The End and the Beginning

Everything that has a beginning has an end

Life is about to drastically change for me. I’m finally doing something that I have been thinking about for quite some time but never gotten the nerve to do. On March 14, 2010 I’m finally moving to Amsterdam, Netherlands. I’ve lived a number of years in St. Maarten, one of the Netherlands Antilles and returning to the Netherlands shouldn’t be too much of a drastic move. However, it’s a hard thing to pack up everything and completely relocate, I guess this is the reason why I hadn’t made the move.

For quite some time I haven’t been happy with the life that I was living and the place where I am living it. Alabama being a true southern, bible-belt, state is just not the place for me. I visited New York in 2007 and was completely entranced with the fast paced, large city, action at every street corner and felt the aftershock when I returned back to my small town Huntsville. Along with the small town feel there is the small dating pool and it doesn’t help if your gay, that just turns the pool into a pail. I’m not saying that the reason for leaving the US is because I’m unhappy with my gay life in Alabama but more so I’ve lost a lot of who I am in the recent years that I’ve started to just float from day-to-day. Each day has nothing that makes it stand out from the previous. So a change is greatly necessary.

I guess with everything change has to occur. With change we grow, its the fundamental part of our human evolution. I look forward to also starting anew. Nothing is more adventurous to me that picking up and starting fresh in a new place and getting to know the environment, people, culture and making it my own. So I see this as the power jolt that will kick start my stalled engine.

So with this impending end I open a new chapter in my life, this site (blog/journal/soapbox). This site will be a place for me to share some wisdom, spark some attention and hopefully fulfill my goal of living my life to its fullest. Life is what you make it and I’m using this site as my fuel to keep my engine roaring louder and moving faster than it has ever been.

Tré Sweeney…..

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